Entry title: another day of school
Date / Time : Thursday, April 24, 2008 / 6:22 AM
erm..sry 4 the delay guys bt im really sort of busy wif hw since the exams is soon which is nxt week!!..feel like skipping sch...wanna hav a break like tat...as if i wanna be far far away frm my friends....haiizz...stress man wif them...i dunno y...is like everytime i talk abt something like their life or my life, they will always change the subject...is as if im nt there...then whenever im wif one of my friends, she will always chase 4 her other friend and leave me behind...like WTF man! cnt stand the thought tat my friends are just PRETENDING 2 be friends wif me just 2 keep themself occupied or something![ HALO? DO I LOOK LIKE A TOOL 2 U ?!] arghh.! At least there are some "trustworthy friends" tat i like 2 be wif! thx god my friends frm my class nvr noe tat i had a blog...if nt, they will tell the whole class abt my comments abt them and they will totally hate me 4 tis...some ahh....i had been keeping tis secret's in my mind 4 a very long long time...and its time 4 me 2 spill it out...rite here, rite now! I really hav 2 admit tat i am very very blur at times when i was instructed 2 do or remember things by my teachers, friends or my fellow family members...bt pls pls dun call me stupid cn or nt?!...u all tink tat u are very smart ahh! tink tat life is as simple as ABC??!! u moron's can't even realise tat u left and treat ur friends like dirt and go on wif life like there's nth happen like tat...i didn't gt along wif the malays cuz i was bloody ass scared wif them and i dun wanna end up like my sis or my bro situation! I only hang out wif the innocent ones...it makes me feel safe and cared by them...sometimes ahh....i totally gt tired when my friends tried 2 praised themself..act cool...or step jambu(pretty)...wanna act gangster also fail...everyone in the sch really gt themself in danger just 2 gt more attention frm other's....lack of careness perhaps?? i can't handle tis situation rite nw...i had been smilling away while eventually im crying inside...tried 2 be picture-perfect bt can't...i tried many ways...bt it didn't work...the only thing tat i cn depend on is being myself...BEING WHO I WANNA BE INSTEAD OF BEING SOMEONE ELSE.. All the drama..the emotional stress...gangster acts...will end here 4 nw...i dun 1 2 see my friends at stake again..
my friends will never be the same again Last WORDS Last FAREWELL...
