early in the morning i went to sch early cuz alrdy no mood
(sry abt tis amalina)
flashback kept coming into my head as i sat alone in the bus...
tried 2 stop my tears frm rolling down my cheeks cuz i dun 1 people 2 tink tat im crazy...
i kept asking myself y time flies by so fast
i was really mad and confuse cuz my life as a teenage girl doesn't seem 2 end like a fairytales in the movie...
memories still keep coming bak into my head and i seriously wanna cry lehh!!
"" y does tis things happen 2 me?! y can't i just be my crazy old self again?? i can't control my anger and sadness towards the people im close with! i just can't take it anymore....schools making me more depress than i tot..and im gonna lose alot of friends by the time i turn 15 nxt year...wat should i do?? will anyone care 4 me?? nobody will ever listen 2 me ...throughout the years, i feel many cute innocent girls are trying 2 gt through my way even the blur ones..is tis popularity or just making me miserable??...gosh! i wish they would just grow up and stop trying 2 gt attention frm the people they dunno or noe! i just wanna say tis infront of them bt im afraid 2 say tat word out...im totally afraid 2 talk 2 the malay people...they all so minah and mat's..wish they were gone...""
tats was wat i said 2 myself when still sitting inside the bus...
and seriously i coulden concentrate on my studies properly...2 tired---
amalina was the only 1 who ask me if i gt problem and i was absolutely gt no mood 2 tell her!
and tat is why im posting it here 4 her 2 read and comment.
hopefully she will understand
my family just starting 2 piss me off more and more
i just wanna have some time alone without anyone bothering me..
my cousin didn't seem 2 noe abt tis kind of matter cuz they gt problem themselves
wats worst is tat i wanna runaway 2 a place called "HOME SWEET PARADISE"
tats wat i wanted..
a BLOODY DAMN VACATION 4 me 2 gt away frm the people i dun 1 to see or heard.
bt hey! nt all dreams come true..
can't depend on friends, family or cousin...
they make me wanna cry more and more...
seriously..!!!!
always gt a feeling tat nobody was there 4 me and i always pretended 2 smile infront of them while im actually nt...
they tink they understand people situation bt they dun!
they dun okay!!
they just pretending tat they understand
i just wanna hav the old days when everyone was there wif me 
nt leaving me or forgetting me
and its seem tat my luck has just flown down the drain.......
pls end my sch fast~!
and i dun feel like turning 14 tis year ....
