hello!!
hehee
finally posted my blog
maybe will post another 1 if i have time...:)
didn't concentrate well 4 the pass few days cuz gt no mood 2 study..like toot!
yesterday had fun walking home 2 inter wif erielle....LOUISE!
hahas!
went to tis weird building even though the sign says "NO TRES-PASSING ALLOWED"
......
didn't actually walk cuz we took the bustop frm tat building -.-
reach home relax for awhile watch tv then play computer..
at nite study
bt didn't study ard 2 to 3 hr...just study at ard 1hr 30min like tat ^^
mum scolded me 4 my sake to pass bt i seriously gt this mood of nt doing this things...
today went 2 check friends blog and found out tat they have their problem too
nt tat i want to interfere or anything, just wanting to know....hehe
im nt KPO hor!
haizzz, kept talking 2 myself lately..
telling/reminding myself to be aware of things tat isgoing tobe changing everyday im here..
friends will start to gt seperate/ignored/talk bad...to you
mum,dad will have high expectation in wanting you 2 pass since ur their only hope in getting through poly/university..
sis and bro will mind their buisness as if ur nt in their life anymore..
cousin will start to gt busier and busier everytime they are in school and won't have the time to bother abt ur needs/problem/outings trip...
and the rest....well i dunno...maybe they will do their own things too..
felt tat i didn't exist in thisworld anymore...
as if i have been forgotten by most of my loved ones..
maybe i need to step up a little to let them notice me?
bt it will still be the same..no matter how hard u try it...
trying 2 let someone notice u is hard cuz they have different thoughts abt u...
its really really hard u noe...really :(
i guess the world is better of without me
its good to be dead then living in the world where people stop caring abt you..
guess tat's what happen when u try too hard...
maybe if a hug frm someone who cares abt me will bring me a big big smile to my face
bt will tat be enough to cure my depressing soul?
pretending will also be the same as trying....it may hurt bt safer to let people ignore u for once in ur
lifetime....
try to gt wat im trying to say
if u are like me then welcome to the club...
