lately, i have been feeling a six degree gap between me and my friendseven though we are together, i feel outcast cuz they dun seem to layan me tat much like last yr...
maybe im too boring for them or just useless peron...?
well,i just can't put it yet :(
shanette did talk to me bt i see her as if she dun take it personally
when she say i change, i feel hurt
bt she really noe tat im lonely bt i dun noe if she's being sincere since she look a bit lost?
and wat sickens me is tat i have to make the first move to talk to people...like everyday!
when i say hi or wave at my classmates, they just walk away
LIKE AS IF IM SOO INVISIBLE TO THEM!
and FYI, i just found out something...
whenever they need me for art and designs, they come and find me
if there's nth to do, they don't bother to find me...
even if they help, i feel tat im nt really there? in a way ahh...
so BULLSHIT sia!
they just make use of me to get things done
LIKE...TOTALLY BULLSHIT!
haiizzz
sometimes i just wanna sit and cry like some lost kid
bt at the same time, it keeps me of tinking whether raffles is a best place to move or wait...
still, i just wanna be happy
nt becoz of my friends bt the sake of my happiness
it seriously hurts when ur friend didn't talk to you abt personal things related to them
& i feel as if i just died in a class full of people tat i noe bt totally frgt abt
maybe the only way is to try to be happy and nt think senseless things abt them
though, there's seem to be a fight between subject frm my classmates, i still dun bother to layan their rights cuz i see no point to it
u might think im being an anti-social bt im really nt!
u see, my class seem to be having a lil misunderstanding abt each other subjects
and they seem to be taking it personally as if they are right and their's are wrong... -.-
and i agree wif tat
bt still, y are we fighting at whose right and wrong?
there's always a diff in wat we do
dun always tink tat its so serious tat u want to debate on tat person word
i noe it might be tough for some of us to get in a situation like tis, bt pls try to maintain it.. :(
none of us noe which is hard and easy rite?
I myself find both subject hard bt i nvr complain abt it since i nvr experience on tat "other subject" tat the rest are taking...
so if people tegur abt ur subject, just try nt to take it so hard and ignore it if possible..
i mean its their business to say wat they want
cuz sumday,they themselves will get the regreted feelings on their faces one day
we just have to wait and see
if we confront to the whole class, nobody will accept each other words
and this will lead to more misunderstanding toward one another..
mrs toh won't like tat lehh
