keys.2.muzics

2010-09-26T05:35:00.000-07:00

everyone is looking for a way to hurt somebody
and i wonder why...?
it must be the grudge that they are holding for a long time & it hurts to see someone with that condition...
times we don't tend to take note except for those who really understand wat they are going through...
so why are they doing it now?
it such a short notice to even realise wat is happening around u especially when there's a big exam in just around the corner..
and these takes back to how and why they put their anger on a person who doesn't want to be the target of those who are in pain
....sure they can treat u nicely bt at time they just took advantage of u and use u like a piece of trash...
they play ur hair as a form of comfort and fun and even tease u ard when they feel stress or tired...
bt to me its just a form of irritation to make themselve feel great while making their friends look more less like dork...
its possible that such a friend take grudge of u in or as a sign of action or words..
its rather harsh...i could say
bt thats life...
yeahh....
thats y wat i see abt them is another form of misery
are they still seeing me as someone who cares or just an anti-social who now doesn't talk much just becoz she has nth to say or just dunno wat to talk abt..
im nt the same girl as they see frm last yr
im just still hoping to see if they realise tat im changing just for the sake of me and nt for them :(
plz accept me for wat i am and not wat for wat i do.
hope they noe wat they are doing to me...just praying tat their stone head will crack open and realise a sense of realisation in these world of.....jerks and *****s

2010-08-08T05:34:00.000-07:00

IM OFFICIALLY OPENING MY BLOG...AGAIN!

2010-08-08T05:00:00.000-07:00

what do u do when something dun feel rite?

everyday when i go to sch, i dun feel happy nor safe wif friends

at time i want to run away frm sch and stay at home instead

its hard to say tis even when im typing it dwn

words can't describe when things aint going ur way especially ur friends

they might listen to ur stories bt will they stay wif u forver?

best friends won't boss their friends ard especially when people adore u

bt wat if they look at ur other side, will they still love u for the way u are?

its suck nt being the centre of attention bt it helps u to chill out for awhile

friends cn be special in terms of being there for u and defending u when someone trying to blame u

they cn be kind at times bt they have emotions too

dun just tink tat a friend is just a robot to carry ur stuff and say watever u tell them to say

dun try to out smart them cuz u won't noe if they are way better than u or nt

comparing is despising

& i dun like people when they show me an attitude in which it make so much sense to them while others think tat they are nt

i dun like competing & also comparing

i only like when there's someone to hug and talk to and nt those who are quiet for nt trying to defend their own friend

bt maybe perhaps they dun want to get involve and its totally true ( so i take it bak)

tip: dun laugh at urself just becoz u are smart cuz people might tink u are overeacting

though to u, u just make it as a joke -.-

pls dun show tat u dun like ur friend who u consider as "LAME"

dun push him/her away just becoz they talk crap

try to talk to them more and then u will noe y & pls, dun always wait for people to come out wif a topic

U ARE NT A PRINCESS U NOE! ( just becoz ur tired frm all ur studies)

be more friendlier than people will like u

dun wait for them to make a move just becoz ur diff than the rest

oh ya, dun be such a drama when u try to joke ard wif people, it might hurt them even though u didn't notice it so much...

Dun tell on other people wat u see and dun make so much fuss on such a small issue cuz u just trying to make people believe u and tat will adds in more "misadventure"

dun blame for other misjudgement cuz u dun noe their "other" side of their story

dun get straight to the point....bt rather talk to those who u have affected on..

2010-04-23T05:04:00.000-07:00

after a lil visit to mardhiah's blog, it was surprising to see her wrote abt me

i really appreaciate wat she did for me & i can't just NOT write abt her rite?

its totally rude!!

mardhiah if ur reading this i hope ur mind is at peace

as you cn see, this sweet girl has tough times in & out of school...

she may look strong frm outside bt if u look closely, u can see fear in her eyes

fear of loneliness, hatred, jealousy & love

this girl just feel lost and she dunno know which path to choose.

she believe at something bt just afraid whether its the rite decision or nt

she may give up easily bt i could see tat something in her mind is telling her to keep moving forward

there's still faith in her and i believe tat

she's NEVER A SLOW LEARNER !!

& she only need a lil comfort and push frm her friends

if they see tat, they could understand

patience is the key to success & consequences come frm the word "ACTION" + "SITUATION"

remember what he taught u mardhiah :)

put aside ur problem & try the best u can

dun listen to what people think or say to u!

POSITIVE IS AWESOOMEEE!!

xoxo- zilah :D

2010-04-17T08:45:00.000-07:00

its weird to say this bt...im rather off being the boring person on earth than being the lamest kid in school -.-

so....HEY SOUL SISTER! [ this might come into ur mind---->> lame/merepek!] -.-

people find me lame while i find myself boring

its SOO OBVIOUS when people are around me cuz they dun tend to talk to me so much since they WANT me to talk to them FIRST

and yes....im currently whinning alot abt tis stupid things cuz im seriously bored and forever will be

nobody chat wif me in msn && no puppy love frm anyone other than me

i just dunno wat to do

getting the "unconditional love" i need

and its nt the center of attention tat im mentioning bt rather the love im giving- getting bak

friends are friends

so y force them to change while u just let them be?

just see if they notice anything & then they will realise whose real/right and fake/wrong

pushing urself to make people liek u is nt the option

though if u want to then its fine wif me

bt make sure u follow wats ur heart tells u the best

instinct are at most important at life

it tells u wats u are doing is right or wrong

also lead u to the path u are looking for....if only u believe in it ahh....

go blur while people are nagging or stress are gd in a way too

ignore the mother toots( mother ******) in ur life

let them judge u since they dun noe u TOO WELL

ltr they will get a really big bang on their head when u succeed while they dun

sorrow is at most weakness & u must control it

2010-04-14T07:26:00.000-07:00

last week and this week have been a very hacktic day for me and perhaps for u too

just posting abt life since i promised mardhiah tat im doing it today.

well, most likely i will continue posting this another day since i seriously no mood to do anything rite nw...

just nw stay bak do art wif shieh ying and erielle

he tong was wif us too

wasn't really having so much fun cuz i had to go in and out of SLC to check whether there is any comp for us to use..

wed librarian have got lesser and lesser whenever i visited them

tiffany aint the leader no more o.o

ermm....i tink im gonna stop. need to study!

sry!

misadventures of Misc & the PurpleFREAK

2010-03-17T07:13:00.000-07:00

do you believe in karma?

well, I DO!

here's a list where something really happen in my life

DURING MARCH HOLIDAY:

mardhiah accidentally drop a boy scooter on the flr near the bubbletea shop
i accidentally drop my spoon on the flr near the grass patch
erielle drop her ez-link card near the bus stamp there
i drop her coins near the mini-mart there
erielle miss her 33 bus
i miss my 168 bus
told shanette to spray paint the styrofoam bt it eroded like crazy
shanette use super glue to stick the mat on the styrofoam bt it also eroded too

so if u don't believe wat im experiencing nw then fine

karma might come due to self insecurities... or just ur clumsiness?

bt if this happen alot go see a physcologist or watever it means!!

2010-03-10T03:43:00.000-08:00

whoa for some lame reason, i hav been complaining abt my "lil problems at school"

seriously nuts man!

anyway, my scar getting bigger and bigger whenever i come to school

kinda sickening though

wanting to get sick when sch reopen bt u can't expect it to happen wif one snap rite?

gonna get progress report soon..

worst still is math!

gahh, fail -.-

haizzzz---

how to graduate like tat?

tsktsk, huhuhu!

hmm...im been tinking if im doing the rite or wrong way again T.T

lately i been telling a lil problem to some friends bt i find it annoying

cuz i just dun feel comfartable when telling them...

could be insecurities?

maybe ahhh....

anyway---

i just wanna noe if they trust me or nt?

its nt abt keeping secrets bt how u really care for tat person feelings

its nt a give or take situation bt rather a decision...

so yeahhhh -.-

hardly to say is tat i been acting oddly infront of my classmate

as if im happy bt really nt

seriously i just lost myself becoz of less affection frm my friends

all i need is just a simple thing....SOME LOVE FROM ALL TAT I NOE OF!!

i just want them to see it

bt maybe my face has make them tink tat im just wanna attention..

i just want love & nt the attraction!

so dun give a stare of uncertainty or untrust-worthy to me

hate me i dun care

all i wanna noe is who really cares for me and also for other people

im nt ur nanny to follow u ard & take orders even though i dun want to get scolded frm u -.-

seriously, im nt gonna be a lost puppy cuz ltr people tink i drag u along then i kena blame for all of it

2010-03-03T03:09:00.000-08:00

there's always a reason why people hurt each other :

1) jealousy

2) hatred

3) under pressure( sick of living in people shoes)

sometimes we don't see it but we hurt each other when things are not according to plan..

misunderstanding can cause the conclusion for all these cause. Even when we speak, we don't see what's coming as if we don't think before we talk. Maybe the way we talk might think we hurt their feelings. Being Jealous because of lack attention can also cause a stir between those who have more friends than u..these mean, they will hurt you through make-up rumours & bullying. At times when we are hurt, we go though a depression state while at times they deal it off with something to distract them instead. Negative thoughts will start to gather through ur mind and u will start feeling piss off and bored wif the people around you..Anger & hatred will then conquer u wif so much force tat u just wanna throw it off to somebody else. These somebody will then be in tat person shoe and both of them will then have different conclusion on the person who is being blame for all the mess. We sometime have to noe when to confront to the person cuz the more u tell off to the people ard u, the more speculation will occur ard u. The person who is being blame will then start to go violent to the people who offended him/her. So let us remind each other to not let mis-conception conquer the tots on those who dun even noe tat person so well even if they dun noe what u just said, weather its abt relationship, friends,family or subjects...just try to confront even if they disagree, make tis as a debate for some? think twice before speaking! dun push it too hard.

2010-01-29T03:02:00.000-08:00

lately, i have been feeling a six degree gap between me and my friends

even though we are together, i feel outcast cuz they dun seem to layan me tat much like last yr...

maybe im too boring for them or just useless peron...?

well,i just can't put it yet :(

shanette did talk to me bt i see her as if she dun take it personally

when she say i change, i feel hurt

bt she really noe tat im lonely bt i dun noe if she's being sincere since she look a bit lost?

and wat sickens me is tat i have to make the first move to talk to people...like everyday!

when i say hi or wave at my classmates, they just walk away

LIKE AS IF IM SOO INVISIBLE TO THEM!

and FYI, i just found out something...

whenever they need me for art and designs, they come and find me

if there's nth to do, they don't bother to find me...

even if they help, i feel tat im nt really there? in a way ahh...

so BULLSHIT sia!

they just make use of me to get things done

LIKE...TOTALLY BULLSHIT!

haiizzz

sometimes i just wanna sit and cry like some lost kid

bt at the same time, it keeps me of tinking whether raffles is a best place to move or wait...

still, i just wanna be happy

nt becoz of my friends bt the sake of my happiness

it seriously hurts when ur friend didn't talk to you abt personal things related to them

& i feel as if i just died in a class full of people tat i noe bt totally frgt abt

maybe the only way is to try to be happy and nt think senseless things abt them

though, there's seem to be a fight between subject frm my classmates, i still dun bother to layan their rights cuz i see no point to it

u might think im being an anti-social bt im really nt!

u see, my class seem to be having a lil misunderstanding abt each other subjects

and they seem to be taking it personally as if they are right and their's are wrong... -.-

and i agree wif tat

bt still, y are we fighting at whose right and wrong?

there's always a diff in wat we do

dun always tink tat its so serious tat u want to debate on tat person word

i noe it might be tough for some of us to get in a situation like tis, bt pls try to maintain it.. :(

none of us noe which is hard and easy rite?

I myself find both subject hard bt i nvr complain abt it since i nvr experience on tat "other subject" tat the rest are taking...

so if people tegur abt ur subject, just try nt to take it so hard and ignore it if possible..

i mean its their business to say wat they want

cuz sumday,they themselves will get the regreted feelings on their faces one day

we just have to wait and see

if we confront to the whole class, nobody will accept each other words

and this will lead to more misunderstanding toward one another..

mrs toh won't like tat lehh

2010-01-25T05:32:00.000-08:00

everyone has a reason to say wats rite...right?

i mean keeping something u hate inside cn just make things worst

so y nt tell them instead?

frm friends to families, i decided to post it here and make it private

so..yeah -.-

i dun want any1 to intrude and think me as an emotional person

even if i am emotional, im still nt going to do suicide of something -.-

ANYWAY~~

i kinda feel piss off when people call me dirty

just becoz of my dandruff!!!!

i mean ..wats up wif tat?!

i hav my reason so MIND YOURS TOO!

seriously i dun like it lehh...

i dun mind if they call me short or anything

bt telling me abt my hair getting dandruff and all is so....UNCOOL!

imagine when someone just came up to u and say....EEE U GT DANDRUFF!

wat would u do?

fight bak or just ignore?

well i did both!!

seriously **** off wif them

they think they are so clean frm outside meh?

well look in the mirror ahh

ur inner self cn just be dirty as i am

i nvr talk bad abt their looks

bt only if i have a reason then yes lor

....

even if they gt reason to it, must they tell the others abt it too?!
i mean ...haizz!!!

ok we "race" have different things in life

chinese bath in the afternoon bt nvr in the morning

malays bath in the morning and also in the afternoon

bt still, i nvr believe they would tease me so badly abt how i nvr bath properly!

so wat if i nvr watch my hair for two days!

i still bath rite?!

moron sia!

say people , say urself lor...

asshole!

hehe sry ahh~

try to defend urself doesn't make u more brave but a coward

hopefully u would stop talking abt my dandruff hair and talk something else

ur teasing might be a joke for u bt it isn't for me!

2010-01-24T02:55:00.001-08:00

don't u feel like one day u wanna get things done and over wif?

when i look at the sky through the window, i feel like life is repeating itselfs

sometime i feel like all of us are trap in a dimensional world where life seems to be endless

and everytime the sun sets to fall, i don't feel like me anymore

as if im a different person looking out for somebody other than me...

its weird to tink abt it cuz people tend to feel normal inside

in a way to say it, they feel like the world is always the same and time is just another waste

in a place call home, we feel safe and somewhat happy

if we change our home to a whole new look, it just looks the same as always...

except tat its has some taste in it.

we just feel ease when the wind is blowing through our face

and when we get out of our home...it just feel rite or indescribable way

time is always limited and tats y i call it a waste

maybe its becoz i dunno how to use the time wisely on other things rather than myself..?

everytime when i switch on the computer, i would always look at myself than doing something important...

could be my insecurities or my unpleasant feelings inside of me?

i just dunno wat it is exactly...i just dunno..

everytime i feel trap in a place where i see and do everday..

sometimes going out is the same thing too...

its hard for some people to see it cuz they are nt like you

tats y they can't get wats up wif u

a feeling tat can't be describe as...

i just dunno wat to do...

study make me go bore

and watching tv make me go to slp..

i just want things to be done wif just one snap..

and tats all i ever need frm here.

2010-01-23T05:50:00.000-08:00

here's another topic for tonight issue =D

have u ever been getting a sleeping disorder?

as in u can't slp at nite all day?

well, i have!

its really complicated for those who couldn't slp...

firstly, they would lie on the bed while looking in the ceilings

secondly, they would just slp in diff position in order to slp well

and thirdly, they would proberly or mostly think too much abt complicated things

tat complicated things could either be stress, love , family , life or fears [ usual basis]

for me its either some of it or all?

hehe i will continue ltr...i tink?

2010-01-21T05:39:00.000-08:00

raffles design school HERE I COME!

so i kinda make my decision to end my sch this yr by going straight to raffles after N-level

to get there, i need at least 5 credits into the apparel design course

so i aim to ace my english, mtl, math, science & ART!

most weakest is mtl,math and science

so must buckk uppp like toot!!!!

the only things tat get in the way wif my studies is my problems and laziness

haizz

everyone has it

& i have to admit, i hate having problems!

as if who like it sia!

wow, i sound like one piss off person -.-

huhuhu!

praying hard tat if i manage to get 5 credit, i hope raffles would consider me as a student nt becoz of N-level bt a course tat im trying to achieve

everyone has a dream and i believe we cn get it by trying to focus and nt doze off into our lala land world

put tat trouble aside and move on as if nth has happen

just smile when ur hurt

bt nvr ur fear of losing things

life cn be a ***** with people ard

BUT WHO CARE'S

we have a purpose to live in this world of life

and tats wat im going to do...

be a fashion designer to let the world see tat everyone has a fashion sense in their life!

whether they come frm different shape and sizes, i still consider them as special

2010-01-21T05:13:00.000-08:00

in term of "stress" im currently worried for this 3 people

i can't tell u wat happen in their life

bt it's seriously matter to me since they are my friends

usually these 3 people would always/sometimes tag wif me when im either lonely or stress

they knew when im down or up

its as if they are my life saviour

bt lately..i see a lil change in them( not by attitude i tink?)

u see..sometime they would tease me ard the classroom and all

bt i dun see them doing tat anymore

is it becoz of N-level or problems in their life?

no one knew...

sometimes i want to repay the kindness by helping them bt i guess there's no need for it rite?..

i guess when my life change, everything also change -.-

i kept worrying abt them becoz i felt a sense of uneasiness ard them

as if they were talking bad abt me

the fear kept building up each day and i wonder how long i cn keep these feeling anymore

if i said this to them , im sure they will think of me as a weird person which is true

& also lame for coming out wif these topic..-.-

anyway, they gt alot of problem so i dun want to interfere so much..

hope they could still layan me like last yr & i truely miss them alot!

2010-01-17T01:11:00.000-08:00

lesson learn: don't always take pride in everything u do even though u work hard for it..

ok nw lets talk about love confession :)
WEEE~~

ok, funny thing abt this topic is how a male & female bond frm a friendship to a relationship crisis...

it might sound weird for those who nvr encounter love confession before
bt there's some who did before
well just awhile or...should i say a long time ago?
lately in movies u should see how many mans confess their love to the women they love rite?
like for an example, a man kneeling down and propose to a girl who he love dearly
or a man scarificing his love for his women when she is in danger...

better yet...a man who publically confesses his love to let the people see how sincerely he is to the girl he loves.

quite common rite?

i mean who doesn't do tat anymore?

hmm...

nowadays, teens like us have been into relationship for a reason

maybe love in first sight? or perhaps, blind love?

who knew!

nowadays man & female in teen yrs are nt confessing their love

maybe bcoz they are too scared or just shy to get embarrased?

this might just be the reason to all the crisis of love

firstly, when u meet a boy in sch

u start to feel normal

bt when he came into ur life and start to be friends wif u, u tend to feel very weird inside

as if u feel very comfortable wif him.

am i rite?

well, i also got tat feeling too bt nt tat interested or rather...nt my taste of choice?

cheeyyyy! :D

ok lame -.-

anyway, when tat feeling happens, u start to question urself

like...." is he into me?" or " y am i feeling this way?"

this question become bigger and complicated

& wat worst is tat ur friends might get into ur complicated life and say more abt tis particular guy

when this happen, it become a chain reaction or maybe more simple...."crush"

a crush is when u like/adore someone ....

this word is mostly common ard babes like us

so yeah....

no need to mention so much abt it since some of us may have encounter tat feeling before

huhuhu!

continuing on---

as u cn see, certain guys are nowadays into sports than romance

while certain girls are into romance than sports

bt sometimes, things get mess up

cuz the guy does nt noe who he love

while the girl just wait for her one true love to rescue her frm her lala land -.-

and for tat, both end up in a confusion state

these is the reason y people dun confess to one another

problems after problems kept building up...

causing both the opposite sex to feel unease will all the mess ard their life

sometimes, i see girls doing the confession instead of the guys

and its a lil weird cuz its like the male become the girl while the female become the guy

i guess when u really need it, u just do it instead

u must seriously noe wat the girls want

and they are nt the type of patient people u see frm their eyes

cuz they cn gt nasty if they dun gt tat love they need -.-

2010-01-15T06:05:00.000-08:00

so i back again!

hahas ok, lame -.-

anyway, here to send a msg abt my boring life in sch

basically, i kinda feel leftout in a very weird way...

as if im invinsible again ..haizz

maybe the stress makes me tink tat way

sometimes people dun gt me

and i had to explain to them so tat they cn gt it

lately, people wanna do things their own way

& they just want the 'other people' to follow their footsteps..

well not me!!

i have to stop being ordered ard by people who just want comfort 24/7

they just need to face the fact tat they are going through the process of "torture-ship"

which mean, getting bump-out by friends and study stress

coping is the only way then helping

i dunno why im saying this bt for me this is how things go...

dun misunderstand by wat im trying to say

cuz my mind is currently outside the box

...erm...like ct focus ahh

well, my friends are like playmates to me

they just come and go cuz they hav alot of matters in their own hand

tats y i call them playmates cuz they cn only tag wif u 4 awhile bt nt too long

its only depend on the mate him/herself if they wanna stay wif them for a purpose

sometime i see a person as a friend

bt lately its hard to see it...

cuz all i see is painting of reflected image instead of a special 'friend-in-hand'

feeling of loneliness tends to hinder ur mood bt nvr ur soul

2009-12-29T01:59:00.000-08:00

feeling frustrated all over
the reason is yet to be told...
anyway! i can't wait for tmr outing :)
going out wif sy to buy my cousin stuff
she wanted a ring so im going to buy her 1
OK! ...my reason of frustration is becoz of people who can't keep their mouth shut
i mean...everytime im angry /make a mistake..
they will always tell on people behind my back
like toot sia?!
seriously when people who are older than me...
they tink they are superior than anyone else
and i noe how old people are when their mouth are lil bit ....TOOT!
sry to say this bt i really can't stand it..
the more they talk abt my mistakes, the more i want to tell on them
in my case i can't keep simple secret--only secrets tat are complicated i cn keep
people who love to listen tend to have a slight slip on their mouth
u can't blame them cuz when they start talking, they won't stop blabering abt things tat weren't meant to be said....if u noe wat i mean-----
if my english isn't rite pls dun mind abt it cuz i no mood to correct the grammars
its hard to show ur frustration to people nowadays
maybe they seen it alot of time or just dun want to get frustrated by the looks of it
i cn be fussy when i dun gt my things
bt i have a reason as to y i need it dearly
everyone does
bt...
i tink its also abt the money rite?
rich gt wat they want
poor gt nth
its like light and darkness ......heaven and hell
all have equal share & fair...
haizz
in this case....GET OVER UR FRUSTRATION OR GO HAY-WIRE

P.S: if people dun like wat u are doing then deal wif it
dun try to act embarassed cuz there's no point to it....rite?

2009-11-18T21:51:00.000-08:00

dun think the wrong way abt the backstabber song :O

im just introducing this songs to all bloggers out there

have anyone heard the song tic tok by kesha?

well for those who heard tat song

let me represent to u kesha latest song called backstabber

well basicly she's telling abt some girl who backstab her for some lame reason
and i tink most of us have encounter tat before

the lyrics is below so do read it

hehe~ :D

and i have to warn u..there's a lil dirty talk in the lyrics there

so do be careful :P

enjoy!

2009-11-18T21:06:00.001-08:00

Backstabber (repeat 3x)

Bored, stoned, sitting in your basement
All alone, cause your little conversations
Got around, now look here what we all found out
(look here what we found, look here we all found out)

That you have got a set of loose lips, twisting stories
All because you're jealous
Now I know exactly what you're all about
So this is what you're all about

Girl, your such a backstabber
Oh girl, you're such a shit talker
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Girl, your such a backstabber,
Run your mouth more than everyone I've ever known
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Backstabber
(Talk talk talk talk talk talk)

I'm sick and tired of hearing all about my life
From other bitches with all of your lies
Wrapped up so tight, so maybe you should shut your mouth, shut your mouth
Shut your fucking mouth

Honestly, I think it's kinda funny that you waste
your breath talking about me
Got me feeling kinda special really (so this is what your all about)

Girl, your such a backstabber
Oh girl, you're such a shit talker
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Girl, your such a backstabber,
Run your mouth more than everyone I've ever known
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Katie's to the left there just there ripping my style
Damn, Jeanie why you gotta tell the secrets about my sex life?
All I ever did was drive your broke ass around
Pick you up, take you out
When your car broke down

Backstabber (3x)

Girl, your such a backstabber
Oh girl, you're such a shit talker
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Girl, your such a backstabber
(Taking and twisting and telling, so manipulative)
Run your mouth more than everyone I've ever known
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

(Talk talk talk)
Backstabber
(Taking and twisting and telling, so manipulative)
Oh girl uhu, you're looking like a lunatic
Everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Everybody knows
Yeah you're looking like a lunatic
And everybody knows
Yeah everybody knows
Backstabber

2009-11-18T08:04:00.000-08:00

i feel sad all of the sudden

like things gonna fall apart frm my life :(

feels like i did something bad to hurt my friends

bt i dunno wat tat 'something' was...

it's hard to understand urself without knowing who u are first

cuz they( friends,family, relatives) themselves see what u are frm inside out..

i wanna believe in karma

bt its hard to believe in something tat cnt be rewritten...

as if unforgiven?

aaargghhh!!...

i just dunno wat to do---

should i sit in a chair and just cry?

or try to redo something tat has alrdy been done?

i just want my friends to see me the way i am

not because im kind,funny,blur, stupid or watever stuff they think of me``

bt truely believe me as their friend

im just thinking things through cuz i feel something is wrong...

and im ending my post for nw..

hope im doing the right thing

cuz i dun wanna regret as usual!

2009-11-13T02:55:00.000-08:00

so i did this quiz about "what's your mental disorder" at facebook

& i found the question quite related to my problems

so when i answer all by heart, guess wat i get..?

DEPRESS OR SO-CALLED DEPRESSION

aaarrgghhh! this is so true!

lately i feel so lonely and gt a lot of negative thoughts in my mind

i kept feeling guilty and this really sucks man!

at least this mental disorder is common ard the world so i won't worry to much :)

anyway, the quiz help me cheer up by appreciating things tat are given to me and even u!

so..yeah!

there u go~

whenever u feel down or depress, always look at the bright side in u :)

there's no one stopping u in fulfilling wat u like :D

sometimes, i admit tat i hate people correcting my english( no offence)

i also hate proud people who thinks they are way better than me (no offence)

& please, please! stop telling me to be careful wif things cuz its seriously freaking me out!

u see, depression cn have side effects

& it might happen as a moodswing as well

we all get it sometimes or occasionally

bt for other/some, they take it as a serious matter

& they which includes me are really really trying to handle this matter in our own hands

and yeah we also have helpers ard us to help us when we are down

so dun take it too heart cuz we have feelings inside

and tat feelings keep staying till we can't hold it much longer..

haiz i tink i said too much alrdy

guess im thinking too much tat i frgt to see the bright side of things :P

hehehe ok....will stop here 4 nw

hope u bloggers are reading this post

as i tot it might have sense to u all who have depression and stuff like tat :)

2009-11-09T05:10:00.000-08:00

sometime i just want things to stay rite

bt sometimes i can't gt things 2 stay the way i wanted

its really takes time to heal and forget

sometimes we had to leave for a purpose

sometimes we had to move on to forget the terrible things we did in the past

sometimes it kills me to see my friends happy when im sad

sometimes i wanna run away frm those people who make me feel left out

it feels like im starting my roller coaster ride again

moodswing really kills time

precious time are wasted cuz we were too busy holding things tat are long gone

sometimes we were given reason on wat is rite & wrong

sometimes its hard to go through life when the one u love are nt here wif u

time are limitless for those growing old

even time make people wonder if they are gonna make it alive or dead...

being strong takes time to process

going through alot takes alot of risk

trying to make friends take sacrifices..

whether the person is gd or bad it doesn't matter to us

we think them as our hope and companies frm this dreadful world of chaos

people did stupid things to gt attention frm people---

they wanna let them noe tat they are not invisble or even dead...

it hurts for a person like me to see sadness all ard

sometimes people who are cheerful cn make me sick to my stomach

i nvr want to argue or fight

cuz to me..arguing abt things tat can't be forgiven cn make me vomit blood

sometimes i see my friends as my cousin

bt lately i see no meaning to be so close to them cuz i see them so happy without me

im glad to say this becoz i dun wanna regret if i hang too much wif them

i have my belo's and they truely care for me

even though there's a gap in between, we try to catch up wif things tat are lost

it hurts to see no connection wif someone u noe bt wif no relation

sometimes i keep on wondering if life will be better for all of us to live

peace without war..

love without hatred..

even sharing without greediness..

it hard to get wat u want..

so live wat is best to u

dun always depend on ur friends and other people to come and follow u

cuz they nvr gonna be wif u for so long

so do wat u cn to live in a prosperity life

dun keep holding on and let go

believe u cn and just go for tat path

im still in search for lost things tat i hav nvr been able to do

im still searching for the rite path to move

and believe god will guide me bak to where i belong :)

2009-10-20T04:01:00.000-07:00

ARE YOU READY?

kekeke, guess wat?!

'TOKIO HOTEL' is back with their greatest hits "automatic"!

the so-called famous german band tat i noe so far is totally awesome wif their rock metal songs!

one of my favourite is monsoon, ready set go and automatic!

so cool!

wakakaka, hear their songs and u will noe y i choose them as my favourite's

apart frm paramore or flyleaf, this band consist of ALL BOYS and even the singer is a boy :P

u may think the boy is girl cuz of his gothic make-up and all, bt his actually a BOY!

mind u !

gahhh they are so pretty, i bet their skin are smooth too...just like tsu shien >.<

can't wait to download their songs at limewire

gonna listen to it all day if possible ~

2009-10-15T00:59:00.000-07:00

im so dreadfully in love wif this chick over here!
believe it or not, she's actually a vocaloid singer.
vocoloid enable to synthesize singing by typing in lyrics & melody
anyway, her songs are nt bad :)
SERIOUSLY!
frgt who created this vocaloid singer anyway -.-
hehe, the graphic are totally awesome too
dunno which video are real cuz it feel sooo MESS UP!
gosh, really relaxing when i hear her songs :3
for those who hate it, gt a life!
boohuuu! :P

2009-10-08T05:08:00.000-07:00

band: FIGURE URSELF
title: All The Right Moves Lyrics

All the right friends in all the right place
So yeah, we're going down
They got all the right moves in all the right places
So yeah, we're going down

Let's paint the picture of the perfect place
They got it better than what anyone's told you
There be the king of hearts and you're the queen of spades
And we'll fight for you like we were your soldier
I know we got it good, but they got it made
And the grass is getting greener each day
I know things are looking up, but soon they'll take us down
Before anybody's knowing our name
They got all the right friends in all the right places
So yeah, we're going down

They got all the right moves in all the right places
So yeah, we're going down
Everybody knows, everybody knows where were going
Yeah, we're going down
Said everybody knows, everybody knows where were going
Yeah, we're going down

Do you think I'm special, do you thinkI'm nice
Am I bright enough to shine in your space
Between the noise you hear and the sound you like
We just sinking in the ocean of faces
It can't be possible, the rain can fall
Only when it's over right here
The sun is shining everyday but its far away
Over the world they say, they got, they got

All the right friends in all the right places
So yeah, we're going down
They got all the right moves in all the right places
So yeah, we're going down
Everybody knows, everybody knows where were going
Yeah, we're going down
Said everybody knows, everybody knows where were going
Yeah, we're going down

It don't matter what you see
I know I could never be
Someone that'll look like you
It don't matter what you say
I know I could never face

Someone that can sound like you
All the right friends in all the right places
So yeah, we're going down
They got all the right moves in all the right places
So yeah, we're going down

All the right friends in all the right places
So yeah, we're going down
They got all the right moves in all the right places
So yeah, we're going down
Everybody knows, Everybody knows where were going
Yeah, we're going down
Said everybody knows, Everybody knows where were going

Yeah, we're going down
Yeah, we're going down
Yeah, we're going down
All the right moves, yeah
Yeah, we're going down
All the right moves, hey
Yeah, we're going down

2009-10-03T21:29:00.000-07:00

OMG!
went to this awesome web and found some japanese/kprean clothes tat i like..
so kawaiiI~
HERE'S MY TOP FAVOURITES---

bt too bad i didn't buy these few favourite of mine :(

alrdy SOLD OUT in just a few weeks!

DAMN!----->>

2009-09-29T02:30:00.000-07:00

I DON'T BELIEVE IT!

anime festival asia is coming to singapore AGAIN!
it will be held on the 21st(sat) to 22nd(sun) november 2009 at suntec city- convention hall~
best part is tat u can meet ur awesome anime character in the REGIONAL COSPLAY CHAMPIONSHIP..which include....KANAME & etc!! :)
u will also meet up wif japanese singers face to face when they sing live on stage..
cool rite!!!
bt the worst part is tat u have to pay the tickets becoz of the singers T.T
the price is still yet to be confirm bt hoping it will be cheap since we are still schooling and all :P
oh i almost frgt to mention...!
there are at least 5 and up-coming experiences zone coming to u
so be prepared!
here's the list i gt so far...

I LOVE ANISONG - MEGA MUSIC CONCERT
BANDAI KIDS LAND
FIRST EVER REGIONAL COSPLAY CHAMPIONSHIP
MOE MOE KYUN MAID CAFE
ANIMATION ASIA CONFERENCEIN CONJUNCTION WITH AFA09

for more info/details, pls visit http://www.afa09.com/ :D

enjoy the festive season everyone!
if anyone interested do tag or tell me :)
i dun wanna miss anything for this awesome festival!!

2009-09-26T02:19:00.000-07:00

finally peace and quiet~
so f*** up abt just nw
im nt saying the person name....
bt she's serious killing me wif all her work!
everytime when i was assign to do something frm her, i will always gt scolded one
she's very hot-headed...trust me -.-
for tat one particular/small mistake, she will always throw temper at me!
for god sake sia, she really think's she's right while im wrong
im nt joking lehhh
last year also kena....
even just nw when i help her cut something for her kuih , she told me to use my common sence..
toot sia!!
how the hell am i surpose to noe tat i have to cut it like tat!
and i can't even cut it properly cuz the scissors are hard to cut it!!
frm tat mistake, i seriously yell at my mum cuz she putting me too much pressure!
i noe she's stress bt dun show tat anger to me cuz i dunno wat u are tryng to say
i really dun want to talk bak at her cuz we might end up into a bloody war agaisnt whose right & wrong..
sometimes u need to make ur parents understand wat u feel bt they jusf dun seem to gt u...
so i tink its best if u just keep it to urself
no point in talking,shouting/fighting.....
it takes time for them to noe u best before they leave u...

2009-09-24T03:24:00.000-07:00

I WANT MY HAPPINESS BACK!
U TOOK IT FROM ME!
WAT MAKE YOU SO SPECIAL THAN ME?
IS IT BECOZ UR ALWAYS THERE FOR THEM WHILE IM ALWAYS RUNNING AWAY ?
IF IT SO, WHY DID U USE ME FOR?
TO MAKE MORE ALLIES SO THAT U CAN MAKE THEM HATE ME?
OR JUST WANTING THEM TO LOVE U LIKE HOW I LOVE THEM?
I CAN FEEL YOUR SENSE OF URGE IN WANTING ME DEAD THAN ALIVE
YOU LIKE IT THAT WAY HUH?
TAKING EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE AND USING THEM TO MAKE ME FEEL HURT
WELL IM NOT GONNA FALL FOR IT AGAIN
I BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH DIRT IN MY LIFE
SO IM GONNA LET U GT A HECK OF A PUNCH FRM ME WHEN I SEE UR FUGLY FACE AGAIN IN SCHOOL
FUCKER CHIBAI!
HEHE
phew! i really needed tat
i noe its bad to talk shit abt my life and stuff
bt its the only thing i have rite nw
blogger is my best friend!!! weee
:)
LAMEEE !
:D
oh! im nt angry at anyone ahhh! dun mistook it for the wrong reason/person!
plus! dun correct my english cuz i noe ur gd at it.. so gt a life...bitch! heehehehehe
kidding :P

2009-09-24T03:09:00.000-07:00

hey friends from 312!
your officially invited to my...

hari raya open house on 3rd of setember 2009

which is on saturday

venue to meet: bedok inter[if those who dunno where to go] /my house bus stop

address: bedok reseirvoir view,

bus:69, 67, 228, 168, 18......etc?

time: 1pm - 4pm

wat to wear: anything as long u are nt naked!

[PS: DUN INVITE ANY FRIENDS FRM OTHER CLASS THAT I REALLY DON'T KNOW..MY MUM WILL KILL ME FOR SURE!]

2009-09-24T02:57:00.000-07:00

gosh! so sick!
nt sick-sick bt just sick of going to school!
is like being stuck in a prison -.-
just feeling irritated wif all the commotion and stuff
went home wif friends and saw this cute cat lying near the pole....
actually divitra was the 1 who saw it first
its alrdy dead..so yeah ....
kinda scary when the SPA carry its leg like tat T.T
seriously, the body didn't seem to be swinging or anything---
it stay there like a stick!!
akward rite?
a lil piss cuz we didn't seem to be respecting the cat cuz we were standing there like toot!
wonder how the cat feels since it gt 9 life ?
nw tat im at home, i feel so relax..
seriously feel annoyed and irritated rite nw...
maybe the lack of attention frm my cousin? :P
hehe , meeting her & maybe him & others for tmr after my lib meeting
going to buy math bk &&&&& EAT!
weeee !

2009-09-15T01:27:00.000-07:00

leona lewis- happy

[BEST LYRICS OF THE MONTH]

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't cha love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Verse 2:
Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days I feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my placeI wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

Bridge:
So and it's just that I can't see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my placeI wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

Outro:
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohhI just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

2009-09-14T04:45:00.000-07:00

lol! k just a short picture taking at my home:P

so bored...take pic lor

so much to talk abt bt no time to type

im ending my post wif my pic

enjoy while its short!

2009-09-13T05:41:00.000-07:00

IM NOT YOUR TOY BY LA ROUX

Love, love is like a stubborn youth
That you'd rather just annoy
I'm walking on a broken roof
While I'm looking at the sky

It's all false love and affection
You don't like me you just want the attention [repeat 2x]
I'm not your toy
This isn't another girl meets boy [repeat 2x]

Love, love I'm in a smoky light
I can never find the truth
Boy, your touches leave me mystified
I wish I could believe in you

Yes, it's all false love and affection
You don't like me you just want the attention [repeat 2x]
I'm not your toy
This isn't another girl meets boy [repeat 2x]
I'm not your toy
This isn't another girl meets boy [repeat 2x]

It's all false love and affection
You don't like me you just want the attention [repeat 2x]

[Instrumental Break]

I'm not your toy
This isn't another girl meets boy [repeat 2x]
I'm not your toy
This isn't another girl meets boy [repeat 2x]

2009-08-31T07:40:00.000-07:00

today was awesome yet tiresome day

celebrated teacher day and make mrs toh cry

especially the video part

totally touching

thx he tong/junior for editing :)

&& hawa for troubling u on finding the video frm ur comp! sry!

[pictures all frm sy FB , go see there!]

oh! the assembly part was totally worth it cuz the performance were seriously great

thx C cube & hidayah for making it happen!

ur the best organiser babe~

anyway, went to visit YNPS wif amalina, sy and shanette!

met simin and shiqi along the way

followed by chairmane , magdeline and gang

didn't met wif joycelyn cuz i tink we came late

-----wat a waste man!

at least simin came rite :D

bt after tat, we took sy to bus stop( she go bak home)

then wait for shanette mum to fetch her

only left me and amalina

waited for amalina teacher to come

bt until 3.30 like tat we both went home

met up wif nazirah sis along the way

she so tall!

gahhhhh -.-

talk crap along the way

cuz alot really change in our ex-ynps place

and when reach home....change &&&& WATCH TV!!

end!

2009-08-29T21:29:00.002-07:00

AVALANCHE BY MARIE DIGBY-

Since when do you come around?
And the temperature’s changed, nothing’s the same
Left me in yesterday
You don’t see me that way, touch me that way no more
When you get so cold
I’m not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standin’ at the bottom of this mountain that we’ve made
(Mountain that we’ve made)
And the ground is shakin’ from all of our mistakes
(All of our mistakes)
But there’s no one, but then
The ice is in our way
It’s a matter of time
We can rewind

If only you knew
What my heart must do for you
I’m tryna break through
Don’t you think it’s worth the chance?
Let’s leave the past
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand? (Where do we stand?)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(Avalanche, avalanche, oh, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(Avalanche, avalanche, yeah, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche, oh)

We see what’s up ahead
Why do we stay, watching us fadin’
Trapped in by regret
There’s no way out, and there’s no way in, no
And it’s so cold
I’m not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standin’ at the bottom of this mountain that we’ve made
(Mountain that we’ve made)
And the ground is shakin’, from all of our mistakes
(All of our mistakes)
But there’s no one, but then the ice is in our way
It’s a matter of time
We can rewind

If only you knew
What my heart must do for you
I’m tryna break through
Don’t you think it’s worth the chance?
Let’s leave the past
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand? (Where do we stand?)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(Avalanche, avalanche, oh, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(Avalanche, avalanche, yeah, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche, oh)

The bond is breaking
And it’s taking over my spirit
(Quickly, quickly)
Something’s shifted
Have we drifted too far, apart now?

If only you knew
What my heart must do for you
I’m tryna break through
Don’t you think it’s worth the chance?
Let’s leave the past
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand? (Where do we stand?)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(Avalanche, avalanche, oh, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(Avalanche, avalanche, yeah, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche, oh)
Avalanche

2009-08-29T21:29:00.001-07:00

SOMEBODY BY KRISTIANA DEBARGE

So young and venerable,
Told myself.
In order to feel the joy,
I had to go through the pain.
I lost track of tears I cried
Through the years.
Even convinced myself,
That I was the one to blame.

All the searchin'
Left me broken.
Had to pick up the pieces,
Be sad for no reason.

Now I'm so glad,
To be with you.
Had a break through,
Finally know how it feels...

CHORUS:
To be loved by somebody
(Be loved by somebody)(x4)
You make me say...
Oo oo oo oo
Oo (somebody) oo (somebody-body)(x2)

Release myself,
from the negative.
Learning from my mistakes,
so I never hurt again.
(I-I-I had to)
Tear down the wall around my heart,
Make myself open for love.
And I'm so happy I did it cause...

All was searchin'
Left me broken.
Had to pick up the pieces,
Be sad for no reason.

Now Im so glad,
To be with you.
Had a break through,
Finally know how it feels.

CHORUS

Now that I found you baby
I ain't ever gona let you go.
I want to tell the world how good it feels...

CHORUS

2009-08-29T08:35:00.000-07:00

YESTERDAY WAS AWESOME LIKE TOOT!
MAKE A FAREWELL OUTING TO HIM
AND TAT HIM IS.....ABG DIN A.K.A BIG D
his going to malaysia to be wif his wife ( kak nurul :D )
sad tats his alrdy nt in s'pore for tmr :(
bt its ok cuz i cn visit them in KL!
shopping together ~
cnt post pic rite nw
will end here!
nite

2009-08-21T06:58:00.001-07:00

CRAPPPCRAPPCRAPPCRAPPPPPPPCRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
SO BORED!!
BLOGGER POST STILL NT STABLE BT CN MANAGE TO TYPE :p
GD NITE!

SELAMAT BERPUASA KE SEMUA ISLAM YG AKAN MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN INI
JAGA-JAGA SIKIT, TAK BOLEH MARAH,MAKI ATAUPUN BERBOHONG PAT ORANG tau!

2009-08-21T05:34:00.000-07:00

the best part abt japanese singers is tat they write nice lyrics especially tis one

hehe! come out frm the anime tat i watch and it's really nice!
here's the lyrics:

[translation in english]

Let it all out, Let it all out
It's okay pretending to be tough
The scribbled flowers someone painted on the wall tremble
No one knows their own way of being
You lose it and find it during the long long path on your way
Suddenly I feel lonely
There's also days in which I'd burst into tears, but...
Let's transform pain and tears into stars
Let's turn on the light that will illuminate the future
Let's hold hands together to create stardust
Let's search for the eternity that will shine powerfully
Farewell, perhaps it'll come someday
Seasons bounce around from one place to the next, nevertheless...
Despite losing the way a bit
I'm walking, I'm walking with you
Let's not change just that

sang by : Miho Fukuhara
title: let it out

2009-08-20T04:17:00.000-07:00

i will be alrite
no matter how hard my life will gt
even though i have friends, they won't always make me happy 24/7
tats y i pull myself together and gather all the fragments of my past memories and make myself happy instead
sometime i stop talking cuz i have these sudden laziness to talk to my friends which im really sry..!
whenever there's discussion i cn only listen than contributing my ideas as i have no mood to think abt anything....i cn only write it out instead of talking
im cn also be spoilt depending on wat i do too
though im seriously missing my cousin fetching me frm sch
i still gotta be independent
im really malas nak layan orang pat sekolah cuz i dun have tat "missing part" wif me
guess i should be focusing on my studies
sry if korang ingat aku ini orang yang tak kisah pasal masalah kwn lain or watever stuff
im have tis weird lazyness to stop looking at people and just concentrate on my studies
sry to those who are affected by this
dun ask me wat happen when im in sch
it's really annoys me...seriously...

A MUST SEE VIDEO!!!

2009-08-18T05:00:00.000-07:00

pause the music player to see the video :)

2009-08-18T01:49:00.000-07:00

everyone gt a reason to do bad things
and i believe tat there's always a thing or 2 behind their problematic background/past
since those of u who are worried abt ur personal stuff---
y nt keep them to urself and be responsible instead
its nt really nice to keep it in a box or watever stuff u call it..
sry to those who come out wif the idea! :(
its doesn't sound nice nor comfortable to put ur stuff in a box or etc
and its best if we stick wif the cctv in the classrm even though the person is nt tat stupid...
plus! dun gt to offensive in blaming anyone in the class..
they have reason too u noe!
maybe its true tat the person may be the reason y some of u are losing things
bt think abt it first...
there's always a reason behind it....
the only way is to let the person say the word out..
they cn be too cunning so dun be fooled by their ignorance word

2009-08-18T01:02:00.000-07:00

IGNORANCE BY PARAMORE

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well, I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle, a mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore
Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life.

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same
No, we're not the same
No, well, we're not the same
We're the friends who stuck together,
We wrote our names in blood,
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go,
I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go,
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend,
Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened;
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person, but you can't take it
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well, now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same
No, we're not the same
No, well, we're not the same
Yeah, we used to stick together,
We wrote our names in blood,
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go,
I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well,I guess I'll go,
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend,
Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend,
Ignorance is your new best friend.

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger,
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go,
I best be on my way out

[some parts remind me of tat person who some's tink he/she was at fault.]

2009-08-14T05:05:00.000-07:00

WITHOUT LOVE BY THE VERONICAS

Did I say something wrong?
Why are you mad at me?
Is there something you don't like about me?
Maybe it's the way I think.

You go behind my back
Telling all my friends that you hate the way I look
You really can't stand me
You try to bring me down when I'm reaching out my hand
Do you really think that it's worth it in the end?

Without love (x4)
We're never gonna make it.
No, we're never gonna make it.
No no-oh-oh-oh.
If I met you face to face
Maybe we could talk it out
If you put yourself in my place
Would you like it if I put you down?

Show me who you are
You don't even know me
When I turn my back
You always talk about me
Pretending you don't hear me
When i set it straight,
You make it more that clear I'm the one you love to hate.

Without love (x4)
We're never gonna make it
No, we're never gonna make it.
No no-oh-oh-oh

(Ooh)

How do you sleep at night?

(Ooh)

When you know it isn't right?

(Ooh)

Be careful what you say
Gotta think before it's too late.

Without love (x4)
We're never gonna make it.
No, we're never gonna make it.
No no-oh-oh-oh Woah (x4)

2009-08-10T05:13:00.001-07:00

2009-08-10T04:56:00.000-07:00

hey if u all are making this cc thingy, y nt see a movie first...

like a first class impression or introduction?

a movie tat remind them of who they are or wat they come frm?

i was thinking of letting the class watch the "freedom writers"

its a story of a class frm american

they grp themselves in gang grps like a racial thing...

always have a conflict between one another due to their race

there's alot of shooting here and there bt there's no real violence :D

nt sure if its appropiate bt really want to watch it wif the class to see how it was like to be in tat state :D

hope u all agree

if anyone approve , i need to buy the CD

hehe

nt sure if it's on sale or nt

2009-08-09T20:58:00.000-07:00

1) Are you sinqle or attached ?
- single

2) Do you have a person you like ?
- nope

3)What is the name of your person you in love with ?
- no one!

4)If the person you in love and your mother dropped into the sea , who will you save?
- both, they are precious to me u see

5)Have you hug someone before ?
-yup mostly my cousins and some frm friends :)

6)Do you love your parents ?
- yeah

7)Will you hug the one you love ?
- depends

8)Are you willinq to do anythinq for your boyf/girlf ?
- only if they do something nice for me

9)Are you jealous now ?
- jealous ? yeah! im jealous of clothes rite nw! they are out in stores nw T.T

10)Who is the last person who msq you ?
- ERIELLE..bt halfway didn't gt to msg bak -.- batter dead

11)Who is your clique ?
- clique u mean gang or friends? hahas confuse :P

12)Do you want babies in future ?
- gd question :)

13)Do you prefer MacDonald , long john silver or KFC ?
- all of the above

14)Do you sniff glue ?
- NO!

15)Do you smoke ?
- are u crazy!

16)If your boyf /girlf play 2 timer behind you , what will you do ?
-JUST IGNORE...see how things go in the end...the boy will deserve the last ending of it *giggles*

17)If you rich , what will you do ?
- buy more harujuku clothes! weee~~

18)If the love wants held your hand , what will you do ?
- hold on tight bt then when the traffic light turn green, u quickly let go and run away frm him..
hehe!

19)If the want you in love , reject you , what will you do ?
- kick his arse

20)What is your favourite character ?
- favourite hah? hmm most proberly the kind one..huhu!

21)Friendship or love ?
- friendship pls ~

22)Cookie monster or elmo ?
-does a bear count?

23)Do you use laptop or computer ?
-computer bt i do want a laptop

24)Do you like lollipop?
only certain flavors

25)Do you have a diary ?
-yeah all the time, nw nvr use bt still keep

26)there an admirer and wont die heart , what will you do ?
- u commit suicide lor, see if he wants follow or nt

27)If you quarrel wit your boyf / girlf , and ask for a break up , what will you do ?
- just dunp him like he dump his ex's

28)Are you blur ?
- yeah..dun ask!

29)If you can have your hair dye , what colour do you want it to be ?
-purple? sunset brown?

30)Who is the last person you chatted with ?
-shiqi, wee kiat, geetha and he tong

31)How many boyf / girlf have you beaten before ?
- beaten? in a abusive manner or wat?

33)What school are you in ?
- pyss

34)Taq 10 bestie or friends to do this quiz ?
> EVERYONE CN TAG THIS QUIZ ..DUN CARE IF U DUN WANNA DO IT~!!

2009-08-07T00:39:00.000-07:00

hey! im bak again!
this time wif full strength~
left the coughing only so no worries (>.<)
kukukuku
guess i miss alot of things since my absents in school
mrs toh was super sweet cuz she msg me to make sure im ok
was really worried abt sch work bt turn out there's only a few to do
hehehe, silly me :P
having a hard time doing math by the way -.-
asking shieh ying for help on tuesday
oh! game fiesta!! shoots!
miss it today too... :(
haizz--
wrong timing to gt sick i surpose?
my quarantine almost over~
yeeepeee ^^
can't wait to hang out wif my friends on monday
planning to have breakfast wif them
anyone interested just msg me okays?!
i really miss seeing everyone faces!!
sob**
received msg frm ben
he was kinda upset abt the class
i wonder wats wrong nw
guess when things change, people change too
u can't do anything bt just try to wait and see wat happen
it takes time for them to notice the surroundings..
beside~
they are still growing into their puberty age
hehe :P
no point arguing rite?
ltr become conflicts like the past years
cooperation is key to success
huuuu~
suddenly come out frm my mind -.-
lame!
we are still one united students and we will always be together as one united class
being best is nt important, its how u make ur friends happy and proud for each other
competition doesn't bring us together...well only some ah
bt team work is the most precious things of all
rmbr tat 1st 2nd 3rd doesn't meant anything ..it only brings jealousy among other classes
dun be too competitive and just be urself's
make urself a medal or sumthing!
ur the winner nt the trophy or the prize!
cuz to me competition are just a make up story for us to win then being together..
get me?
more over, dun miss out on things u wanna be when u grow up
example...being a teacher like mrs toh
u have to attend classes and dun skip them becoz u think its nt important
yeah to me , i also feel tat way..bt tat doesn't stop me frm skipping classes rite?
start a fresh and start a new path
u still gt time left to chase for ur goal in becoming a new person
dun sit there and wait for sumthing 2 happen...move ur ass and do sumthing :P
go 312!
hehe ^.^
we are lazy bt we dun lose hope in dreaming rite?!
hope to see u all bak to normal again
cheeerss to us
and stay hyper!
weee~

my experience in being quarantine at home

2009-08-05T18:29:00.000-07:00

i dunno how i gt sick bt i noe 1 thing.....
QUARANTINE RULE!
being sick suck bt its worth it :)
sound stupid to say this tings rite?
hehe~
ok i better post fast...my body starting to ache again -.-
im giving the detail of wat happen for the past few days

monday:
stay bak to accompany shanette for chem class
suddenly caught myself wif a running nose
go bak home wif amalina
take a shower then change to baju kurung
meet relative....still down wif running nose
ard 10 plus take medicine...go to rm & slp

tuesday:
wake up, start 2 feel giddy...head so heavy
told to take temperature & gt 39.1 degree
stayed at home and then wake up to bath
visit cousin house...slp for a few hours, cousin accompany me go visit doctor..
tis time temperature rise to 39.2 degree
body feel like burning!
go my second cousin house, stayed there for a few hours then go bak home to slp again
( thx for the msg, sry if i reply late..was slping)

wednesday:
wake up at ard 8plus
coulden slp ..dunno y
mum told me to take temperature and nw it had gotten worst then before...
40 degree lehh!!
gahhh pain sia....take medicine like toot bt didn't work!
friend call me at the same time
coulden talk..
mum nag
almost feel like fainting
had to force myself to slp
few hours ltr...fever drop down to 37.3 degree
weee!!

today:
coulden slp..
wake up early like yesterday..
kept coughing like crazy..
a lil weak..
back feel pain..
can't stretch tat much..
nw posting..
and nw going 2 watch tv.. =)
trying to gt some slp if cn

ending post here...bb!

2009-07-31T06:10:00.000-07:00

yesterday went bak home late to do something wif erielle,sy and ht

after tat go bak home took cab

thx for the treat ht ( we didn't really want u to pay lehh )

had fun~

all so blur bt still so goofy

will end the post for nw!

2009-07-31T04:25:00.000-07:00

yesterday, yesterday ( wednesday )
went home wif shikin, mardhiah and he tong :D
wanted to take bus home cuz alrdy 5 plus
bt these two freaks which is mardhiah and he tong drag me and shikin to inter lehh
we go there by FOOT!!
im bloody tired like toot!
somemore they both kept on holding my bag which add on a lil weight 4 my shoulders to handle..
almost wanted to die
bt thx to shikin wackiness, she make those 2 freaks go crazy like toot :D
shikin tried to go mute bt coulden make it cuz mardhiah and he tong kept making her laugh
she talk through typing on her phone & i was really laughing my ass out!
she's totally cute and crazy just like mardhiah!
both are kuku in the head!
after tat reach inter, go home~
hehe too bad my bus didn't come first ( mardhiah bt her's instead...nt fair! )
oh well, better luck nxt time
u win me mardhiah, bt u can't beat me...the nxt time when we go home again :P

thx he tong, for the wait!
&& thx mardhiah and shikin for making me go kuku ^.^

2009-07-28T03:29:00.000-07:00

ello!
posting again abt yesterday :D
well, yesterday stayed bak to surport sy for sudoku wif divitra
bt we end up participating in the competition wif her too!
ben and shawn was also present at tat time
all of us were so noisy inside the rm!
took pic as a proof tat we all did actually take part in the tournament
after photo taking, took the sudoku competiton
the mediacorp crew were wif us bt there were no camera's ard :X
too bad...
the sudoku was bloody hard lehh
my brain was really going to break down like toot!
me and sy were really blur cuz we dunno wat to do wif the numbers
i kept saying *toot things* until sy laugh
i dunno abt divitra, ben and shawn bt i swear it was hard!
bt its fun for math nerds :P
will be posting pic soon..!
cya

2009-07-28T03:23:00.000-07:00

omg! have u heard?!
felipe massa is in hospital!
luckily its nt so serious ...phew~
read the newsapaper just nw and i was totally shock!
his face look so badly injured and reports said tat he fractured his skull!
gosh, i hope his doing fine :(
it was really sweet tat his crew members were there to surport him

gt well soon felipe massa!!

2009-07-25T21:47:00.000-07:00

A BELATED B'DAY SURPRISE :D

2009-07-25T20:56:00.000-07:00

ehhh! blog back to normal bt cnt post pic!
sad.... :(

yesterday went out wif kak suzie and abg awal to see sunset~
met up wif them late cuz busy doing my hair..hehe!!
ate at subway bt nvr ate the bread cuz alrdy eaten at home :P
after tat go pasir ris beach see sunset there
bt before tat buy stuff at white sand
kak suzie and abg awal kept talking abt random stuff tat make me go blur -.-
then after tat take bus 403 go to the beach
sat at the huge rocks then talk abt ghost story
quite scary >.<
i tink ard 7.32pm like tat go bak home
both my cousin were acting weird at the same time too...
they kept checking their hp!
so annoying!
wait for the bus so slow man!
reach home ard 8pm i tink?
was opening the door while my cousin were behind me..
while opening the door i had alrdy suspected something was wrong
so i open like normal lor
then saw abg din and papa african standing near the wall while filming/taking pic of me
my expression were blur so i act normal wif it
hehe too bad i wasn't surprise :p
hahahas!
bt it was really sweet of them to rmbr my b'day since i tot they had forgotten all abt it :D
thx belofamily!!!
we sang, we laugh and we played~
ate the cupcake so sweet and nice!!
played scrabble till brain gt corrupted
bt still, we all had a bloody gd time!
papa africa was sick so it was a lil sad tat he couldn't able to play wif us :(
hope his feeling better nw!
bt overall i found my belofamily the cutest people ever cuz they all so belo and blur!
hehe~
hope to this a again!!
weeeeeeee~

2009-07-23T23:53:00.001-07:00

attention! blog post can't be used!!
i dunno how or y i can manage to type through these weird "medium size box"...
anyway, can't post pic due to problems wif the posting..i will leave the rest till here...

2009-07-22T03:24:00.000-07:00

hey im officially 15 years old!

so old man

chis!

anyway, i wanna thanks my friends who bought this cute lolita hat and a bear for me!

thank you!

though i didn't want them to buy such an expensive item, they still bought it 4 me -.-

haiyo!!

waste money lehh...

grrrr-----

bt i have to do something in return rite?

i dun want them to tink tat i hate their gift or watever shit ahh..

so i wear them instead..hope u like it!

and oh! have u read the last two weeks or four weeks ago newspaper?

i found this reporter wearing a cosplay dress and was so kawaii~~

i took a pic of it and wanna show it to u all tat u are nvr to old to wear a childish costume!

hehe! must support cosplayers who sacrifice 1 and a half hour trying to gt into tat dress hor!!

they can't even move an inch or wat-so-ever lehh!!!

cuz if they move, something may ruined their whole look...

so for nw enjoy the pic

hate it then leave my blog!

huhuhuhuhu :P

2009-07-17T00:01:00.000-07:00

Brandy : Acapella Lyrics

Boom, clap! (x6)

Clap!

I'm feelin' such a vacancy, I don't feel whole (oh, oh)
Wish I can put my finger on it but I don't know what it is
Looked in every place I could see
Try'na to find the missing part of me
I can't explain this feeling (feeling)

Feels like I'm on a long journey going in circles
And I ain't even goin' nowhere
I'm lost in the middle of nowhere
Something is missing
Can somebody help me?
Something is missing
I'm missing a part of me
Something is missing
Show me what it is
Show me what's missing
Missing

Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Boom, clap! (x4)
Clap!

I'm in a dark room in a bad position
I'm lookin' for the light to restore my vision (vision)
Guess I'm walkin' blind, I keep falling down, I can't find my way
I can't explain this feeling

Feels like I'm on a long journey going in circles
And I ain't even going nowhere
I'm lost in the middle of nowhere
Something is missing
Can somebody help me?
Something is missing
I'm missing a part of me
Something is missing
Show me what it is
Show me what's missing
Missing

Feels like I'm leavin' something behind
Can't think straight, something's on my mind
Can't pay attention, 'cause I'm oh so broke
Can't find the words, 'cause they all been spoke
The answer's got to be right in my face (oh, oh)
What I gotta do to fill this empty space? Ohh

Feels like I'm on a long journey going in circles (circles)
And I ain't even goin' nowhere
I'm lost in the middle of nowhere
Something is missing
Can somebody help me?
Something is missing
I'm missing a part of me
Something is missing (oh)
Show me what it is
Show me what it is

Feels like I'm on a long journey going in circles
And I ain't even going nowhere
I'm lost in the middle of nowhere
Something is missing
Can somebody help me?
Something is missing
I'm missing a part of me
Something is missing
Show me what it is

Show me what's missing

2009-07-16T23:20:00.000-07:00

today was a typical friday...

so lazy to layan my friends

cuz tmr alrdy going malaysia -.-

gt tons of hw to do and i haven did one yet!

annoying lehh

art was awesome! :D

erielle knee was pain at tat time too so coudn't do anything bt advise her to massage her knee

[must be the jogging]

did painting till our hands gt dirty

shirt gt a lil paint too ( found out tat the paint cnt be remove & my mum will kill me 4 sure! )

english was so embarassing cuz we had to this speech abt uniform and stuff. . .

did something stupid which i seriously don't want to recall

plus! im seriously mad abt the new timetable

arrrgghhhhh!!!

y do they change every week?

its super ridiculous man!

i mean , this week timetable is alrdy fine!!!!

they are so stupid to make a new one...

waste paper and printer ink! ( where the environmental club when u need them?)

stupid people...

annoying part is tat tuesday gt 2hr of malay at a different time period

so piss off!

my b'day somemore lehh...

like as if they want all the student to suffer sia

i hate tuesday and so is my b'day!

sucks forever!!

oh! had fun wif amalina today

we walk bak to interchange.

met wif shikin and mardhiah at the same time too

we all shout each other name like crazy

bt it was super fun!

me and amalina talk abt some random stuff

then go KFC to buy my mum's food

and suprisingly saw divitra, geetha and one of their friend there

they didn't saw me so i ignore lor

sry!

i was seriously kiasu cuz dunno how to order

then after tat go bak to interchange bus stop there

(actually amalina wanna go lib then she change her mind..haiz! )

didn't take bus 69 cuz alot of people and we saw jiaqi wif foxy lady[stella]

funny part was tat i told amalina tat we cn sit on the floor if we board the bus

and amalina said tat if the bus driver press on the brakes, she will be hit by the bus door infront of us

then i reply bak tat if she was really hit by the bus door, i will take pic of her in my imaginations :D

hehehe~

a few minute ltr, we board bus 168 ^.^

stop at the bridge there and go bak to our home..

the end!!!

oh ya!

told amalina abt how shieh ying look like ms saw when she was nt tying her hair and she agreed abt wat i said

hahas~

thx for the fun time today

i seriously need it!

hope we cn do it again :)

will miss u!

and u better control ur expression cuz its getting abit scary

huhuhu

bleh!:P

( sry shieh ying & erielle , nvr go home wif u all!)

2009-07-16T02:22:00.000-07:00

i dun seem to be myself like before

felt tat im missing something

haaasss.....

its so annoying!

mum won't be able to bake cupcake

(sedih seyy..)

which means my cousin will nt be able to celebrate my b'day in s'pore!!!

just a lucky guess tat i will be celebrating wif them at my cousin house in malaysia instead -.-"

reminds me of the last time i celebrated my b'day ...

seriously doubt tat it will be the same thing as 2 years ago... -.-"

celebrating b'day is troublesome cuz everyone won't be able to attend

and its so boring to nt have ur cousin ard on ur b'day...

hoping tat they would fetch me to sch on tat special day

really miss them!!

unlike my friends, i cn kiss my cousin on the cheecks >.<

i felt like a kid again~ :)

weeeeee

though im spoilt, im still on the verge of being mature

being old kinda sucks...

bt most important thing is tat on thursday, my sch gonna wear ethnic costume 4 the upcoming racial harmony day (actually its on tuesday)

so i can't wait!!

beside, i nvr been wearing one in sch before~

wish my happy day would return soon!

2009-07-15T07:12:00.000-07:00

nth happen today just a minor miscap abt friends and stuff

nt to worry

im fine nw

thx 4 the advise and encouragement

will move on once everything is forgotten

and FYI: dun ever go home wif shieh ying and he tong...

they are violent creature's who force me to walk to the interchange--

and even try to prevent me frm going bak to the bustop

nw im super tired becoz of the turnings and yellings

and nw i gtg slp

cya tmr

...mtl sucks!

&& congratz on nameerah being discharge frm the hospital

gt well soon my dear!

tq mardhiah,shikin and firah =D

im glad u gals notice something and i appreciate wat u all did for me

and i wanna thank you for making me happy for today

love u babes! <333

L.O.T.S!

sry if im nt wif u girls 24/7

2009-07-14T02:11:00.001-07:00

If anyone asks
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you
I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet
Can I open my eyes
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry
Cry

If anyone asks
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yeah what do I care if they believe me or not
Whenever I feel your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yetCan I open my eyes
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry
Cry

I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away

Is it over yet
Can I open my eyes
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry
Cry

2009-07-13T07:05:00.001-07:00

wee!

finally cn use the new keyboard~

currently studying in the dark cuz sis wanna sleep -.-

mtl was as boring as usual

bt had fun wif friends in class

( talk craps and do crazy stuff to stay hyper )

shanette didn't attend class today cuz she was sick :(

and so was ben [ he still came to sch bt was half-way sick]... :(

DO GT WELL YOU 2!

had a nice chit-chat with maggie after the library meeting:D

talk about stuff that are a nt related abt studies~

erm...

i will stop here for now...

post this another time..bb!

gd nite

2009-07-10T02:02:00.000-07:00

i kinda feel bad abt the previous post tat i posted yesterday
so i decided to make one up instead
well....2day my class celebrated mrs toh b'day bt somethings went a lil wrong
fidi fainted at class and all of us were like gathering at her table
it was really scary cuz she was looking rather pale :(
i didn't really noe wat happen bt all i noe is tat she was unconscious
party was delayed cuz mrs toh had to call fidi's parent :(
most of us were worried abt fidi cuz she's been acting weird during geography lesson
the weirdest part of all is tat some say fidi was process or just having difficulty breathing due to the class rm atmosphere...
everyone was alrdy KPO abt the incident & i was a bit piss off abt it
after a few mins or so, mrs toh came
all of us were like queing up for our battle stations >.<
and then the celebration begins!!
mrs toh face was so delightfull
although she still had to meet up wif fidi parents, she still had to attend her b'day party rite?
so far, so gd =)
some of our classmate did't make it cuz they had to attend meetings and stuff
shieh ying took alot of pic and the rest were eatting cakes
in the end, all of us were having a hell of a gd time :D
although fidi's unconsciousness is still stuck into my head,i still manage to enjoy myself...
im still worried though.....
hope she's alrite ...

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY MRS TOH!!!

when u wanna break down and cry
there will always be an adult for u to hug
although we are different in age and religion,
there will nvr be a person who can really take care of u like ur parents do ....
so take tat opportunity to start a new
and gt a hug frm ur beloved teacher~
don't waste ur time and to start a fight
cuz there's still a place for u to live ur rights!

and for tat, i thx mrs toh for being the most caring and encouraging teacher in our class.
although we are sturbborn at times and even annoying, u still stayed on to us like our mother and treasured us as one big happy family :D

becoz of tat, i thank you for ur great kindness of love and always shine like the stars in the sky ^.^

oh and to he tong:
although i might spoilt ur day wif my yesterday's post
ur still smilling happily in class and im glad for tat :)
dun gt the wrong idea abt tat post
it's just came out frm my mind
im just an observer on duty
im nt gossiping nor am i complaining...
im just doing wat i do most...
telling my story/life
though its just half of the true story
im still keeping 50% of the truth inside my head
its nt really nice to talk abt the people ard me
at least its best if u kept some for urself

hope u understand me
hehe
happy belated b'day!

2009-07-09T06:52:00.000-07:00

its gd to be u especially when u are suck at everything u do
nth is fair only those who are into such a thing can have tat fairness in them
seeing is believing
giving are forgiving
faith now lies beneath our shoulders..
its all abt being u and them...
when someone dies they start to realise
how will they ever live without a person stronger or greater than them?
who is capable to be the next saviour of our planet?
god?......... or us?
u decide....

2009-07-09T06:25:00.000-07:00

LYRICS: if today was ur last day BY: nickelback

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had, if today was your last day?
What if, what if, if today was your last day?

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you're never living twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are

So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

2009-07-08T04:18:00.000-07:00

the final moment of our beloved michael jackson

2009-07-08T03:08:00.000-07:00

they just don't gt it do they?
the only thing they cn do is complain,complain, complain....
being u is hard ecspecially when the person like's to compare wif u and their needs
choosy people,bossy people,selfish people,friend stealer or heartless people are just the same
im sick of seeing the same faces evryday
is like repeating the same process over and over again
the only thing tat i wanna do is stay at home being isolated wif stuff toys and books..
its nt tat im complaining..is just tat im so confuse and sick of everything..
i just want them to notice something and nt just the fame and fortune
they think they understand u? well think deeply and say tat answer out
everyone have a secret kept inside and its nt just me even u who think u are greater than anybody else have secrets too
so make that choice to give in or out to anyone u thrust
im nt into telling secrets ,im just here to observe..

2009-07-03T03:55:00.000-07:00

so yesterday yesterday which is wednesday, we went out to buy our stuff for the project work
ate at pasta mania where i embarass myself infront of the casher
bt thx 2 he tong, he help me out to say wat i want 4 my food due to my blurness of hearing the casher speech/questions??...hehe!
after tat go popular buy this cardboard and went 2 toy'R'us to play ard wif some toys
found this cool sushi and cupcake maker which is REALLY EDIBLE 2 BAKE AND EAT!!!
bt cost alot of money so have to wait till the nxt holiday...chis!
anyway, went to the T1 (tampines one) look-look ard
went to this japanese toy shop which sell tons of cool jap toys & keychains!!
WEEEEE~~~

tat was when shieh ying took out her phone to take pic of all of us except for shanette!
she dun like to take pic...(>.<) eeekkk! so far erielle gt the most candid pic taken ^.^ it was totally fun when she wasn't looking stress at least she's nt bored rite?? hehe~ after tat showed shanette and shieh ying the sweet i bought at yamaha basement cost ard $4.00 perhaps bt im nt sure ahhh... just noe tat the sweet there taste nice & it will always be exported by the jap :D kekekeke so far i been telling my stories instead of showing u all the pics so here it is...enjoy!

2009-06-29T04:02:00.000-07:00

a tribute goodbye to the king of pop -MICHAEL JACKSON
the cause of is death is still unknown
but sources or rumors said tat the death was cause by drug overdose or autopsy
his children are now under the care of michael jackson's mother- Katherine Jackson
well thats the only info i noe so far.....
watch e!news online or at tv~
start at 6pm every monday to saturday( only for those who have starthub)
hehe :)
gonna leave u wif these song call give thanks to allah by mj

here's the lyrics:-

Give thanks to Allah,
For the moon and the stars
Prays in all day full,
What is and what was
Take hold of your iman
Don't givin to shaitan
Oh you who believe please give thanks to Allah.

Allahu Ghefor Allahu Rahim Allahu yuhibo el Mohsinin,
Hua Khalikhone hua Razikhone whahoa ala kolli sheiin khadir
Allah is Ghefor Allah is Rahim Allah is the one who loves the Mohsinin,
He is a creater, he is a sistainer and he is the one who has power over all.

Give thanks to Allah,
For the moon and the starsPrays in all day full,
What is and what wasTake hold of your iman
Don't givin to shaitan
Oh you who believe please give thanks to Allah.

Allahu Ghefor Allahu Rahim Allahu yuhibo el Mohsinin,
Hua Khalikhone hua Razikhone whahoa ala kolli sheiin khadir
Allah is Ghefor Allah is Rahim Allah is the one who loves the Mohsinin,
He is a creater, he is a sistainer and he is the one who has power over all.

FYI: he's a muslim, so is his bro!

2009-06-17T05:51:00.000-07:00

july is just ard the corner!
can't wait~
reason: birthday's!!
weeeee

5 wishes tat i wanted:
group hug frm friends :D ( just like barney )
those who own me a hug.....*amalina!*
a surprise b'day party frm my cousin ** hope**
lolita dress :P - frm asuki GL ***another hope*** -.-
finally, a photo of the july birthday members ^.^

...hoping 2 fulfil all of it soon!
wish me luck!~

2009-06-15T08:00:00.000-07:00

hehe!
its feel as if almost everyone in my class are doing blog!!
weeeeee~
how cool is tat!?
i noe it's lame bt it really fun to have ur oneof ur classmate's blog :D
hoping the teachers will make one too :P
huhuhuhu
cya& gdnite

2009-06-12T06:07:00.000-07:00

so today went out wif shanette and shieh ying
mardhiah and friends couldn't make it so there's nth we could do :(
the outing must go on no matter wat~!
watch monster vs alien in 3D!!
super cool bt my spectacle kept falling off...so annoying
so far so good
ate this cheese omelette frm kuboyashi?.dunno the restaurant name -.-
tasted super duper delicious!!!
giving 5 stars for this food
hehe~
took pic and then went to the cd shop near the cathay cinema?
played ard for awhile and went up 2 the 3rd floor to find jpop songs
found bunch of favourite cd's tat i like bt didn't bought one cuz EXP!
chis!

then go 2 liang court to find my harujuku clothes
bt otw there visit the kinokuniya book store to find shieh ying story bk
me and shanette kept walking ard the store cuz shieh ying went missing for no reason
so we walk walk walk then when shanette call her, she was rite nxt to the cashier there!
haizzz...
after tat went to the asuki gl shop:D
there the display showed these cute harujuku dress for a 4 yr old kid and its totally cute!
bt when we gt there, these kawaii looking girls were having their pic taken by a dude!!
gosh, tats really embarassing
tot tat i would check on the hat tat i have been wanting to buy bt these photographer kept intruding my privacy...
anway, while waiting for them to finish,we went downstairs to buy drink and took pic along the way ^.^
shieh ying took alot of pic
then went up to the same spot...still haven finish!...go down and up again~
then blahh blahh blahh
didn't bought anything frm the shop cuz i dun find anything tat interesting
and the cashier plus the cosplay still doing their picture...damn!
the clothes they wear are great though
sry tat i didn't take pic cuz they were busy wif something else :X

after tat, go bugis to take neoprint~ weeeee***
this part is really interesting cuz shanette suddenly like the neoprint!
reason: doesn't show her body much bt her face-.-
hehe ...the rest of it is HISTORY BABEY!
huhuhuhu----- :P

ending the post wif a pic bt nt today...damn tired >.<
cya!

2009-06-11T05:24:00.000-07:00

KAWAiiii!~~

WOULD ANYONE CARE TO BUY THESE DRESS FOR ME? :x

COST: $100++

FULL SET: ........MORE THAN $100 +++...proberly $200

if u are rich and a huge fan of haruku clothes, visit these website :

http://atsuki-gl-online.blogspot.com/search/label/Lolita

its so JAW-DROPPING that u had to save up to $100 +++ just for a dress... -.-

good luck at that!

i will be cheering for those who are lucky enough to buy the whole set

don't miss out on the price!

it TOTALLY PISSED MY ASS OFF when i saw it!

SERIOUSLY MAN, U NEED TO BE FREAKING RICH TO BUY THOSE THINGS!!!!!

"@$#%^&^$%$@@~#@!$&**&^&*%$$$$$$$*******@W#!$@%$@#!!!!!!"

DON'T BE FOOLED BY JAPANESE PEOPLE's
THEY ARE DAMN GOOD WHEN GIVING THE PRICE COST >.<

..............CHIBAI!

sry!

when u need it, u get it.......FAST!

GAHHHHHHH!!......im so despo -.-"

2009-06-09T20:18:00.000-07:00

human are nt the only ones who are afraid of mouse...watch this video~ ^.^

2009-06-09T20:11:00.000-07:00

some secrets are better yet untouched or unspoken :D
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ssshhhh.....

can u keep a secret? :)

2009-06-09T01:06:00.000-07:00

today had physic and chemistry class :D

physics class was okay..

sy, divitra, shanette and he tong kept playing wif my laser pen till nearly kena confiscate frm tat teacher, mr liew-.-

bt so far its was fun!! divitra & he tong kept aiming at the teacher body part till the face lehh!

hahas, damn funny!

after the class was over, all went down for chemistry class..

a lil boring bt quite exciting :D

played chemistry crossword and our grp won the 3rd

get free sweets frm mrs toh( THANKS! ^.^)

tasted soft and gd ~

anyway, after chemistry class ended went home wif mardhiah

take bus then board down somewhere near techno park and walk frm there

chat abt some complicated things and joke a lil abt ms pearlsaw :x

hehehehe~

after tat, we went to our seperate place and take bus frm inter 2 go home

the end**

[mardhiah]- hey i tink ur rite abt her, maybe she need some space alone to figure things out and its nt ur fault tat she is like tat...she's also at fault too. Maybe she need to realise something before showing her anger to others first. And i have to admit that she's close to u and really wants to be with u, nt as a friend bt as her god-sister...since she's nt tat close to one of her family members. . .try contacting her when u gt the guts or when her mind is resolve wif happiness? hopefully it will work....

[he tong]- have u said anything yet, or still waiting 4 the rite time to tell? just go for it and im sure u will be fine :D

2009-06-04T23:26:00.000-07:00

Its finally here!!

Singapore Toy Games & Comic Convention is coming to s'pore!
here's the details~
click on the pic to enlarge it:---

or better yet,why don't i tell you the details then-----

venue: Suntec Singapore, International Convention & Exhibition Centre
or suntec city
what level: Suntec Singapore Convention Halls, Level 4
date: 14th till 16th AUGUST (3 DAYS)
convention hall : 401-402
bus service to suntec : 36, 97, 106 , 111, 133, 501, 502, 518, 857, 700
nearest stop in mrt station : CITY HALL

for more info visit http://www.singaporetgcc.com/forvisitors.html

dun worry Admission is FREE! :)

please inform me if u are going, thank you!

2009-06-03T06:03:00.000-07:00

CONGRATULATIONS ITS A BABY BOY!

may he be bless with the strength of knowledge and wisdom :)
& hope to pinched his chubby face once he reached 3 years old :P

for now lets celebrate the joy of giving birth to a new member in our family tree..yay!

[its nt mewho gave birth! its my COUSIN!!! :) ]

2009-06-02T07:26:00.000-07:00

hey there
gonnna endpost wif a lil drawing i make
a lil help 4 decorations through the photoshop..
sry if my drawing are nt tat clear
enjoy~

2009-06-01T23:43:00.000-07:00

gahhhh!!! today did cleaning at the SLC room in the library
totally interesting/boring/fun yet a bit tiring
didn't help much cuz the stuff were kinda heavy and i wasn't tat strong enough to carry them all
sry to those who i didn't help!!!
didn't mean it tat way :(
so sry!!!

[ALONG THE WAY PLAYED WIF MARDHIAH,SHIKIN AND FRIENDS =D..talk abt some stuff which is nt appropiate for any ages except 4 overgrown adults :x]

oh ya! went to check on erielle fb and look wat i saw...

yes people! its NEW MOON TRAILERR........*OFFICIAL*
well, i tink ahh...
i almost melt when i saw bella and edward together
hehe~ plus! u should see jacob!
so mascular :P

pause the music if u wanna hear their voice :3
[ENJOY!]

2009-05-31T06:26:00.000-07:00

watch it! very touching >.<

2009-05-31T02:26:00.000-07:00

BEFORE THE CARNIVAL.....

DURING/AFTER THE CARNIVAL....

2009-05-30T00:02:00.000-07:00

today carnival was fun!

as usual run there, run here...

had to wear this bill-board or writting board??

went downstairs and up to chase 4 people

they don't seem to be interested wif the board and my entertainment....sedih :(

then then went for 1 hr break cuz some classmates are doing the 2nd shift ...so yayy!! :)

walk ard alot cuz my legs kept getting cramps and half asleep inmy head

played ard wif shanette,geetha and divitra---

while shiehying kept going MIA whenever i find her wif jing jing

did take some photo and will be posting soon..i tink?

oh ya! abt the serawak photo...errr...maybe it will take a while cuz there's alot of pic..

MOVING ON!

i saw this cute lil girl wearing this cosplay dress and i notice her wearing a cat hairband

the dress totally match her cuteness factor and it was a waste tat i didn't take a photo of her..

DAMN!

went to serve the web and promise geetha tat i would show her once im using the comp

and here it is! the harajuku dress tat i been talking abt~

enjoy it while u can

some dresses may find u a bit childish bt i find it rather cute :D

so dun say tat i wanna dress like 1 to be cute okay!

i just wanna noe how it feel like to wear tat kind of outfit :x
japan are like cherry blossom, hehe~

2009-05-28T06:52:00.000-07:00

im back babey!!

hehe =)
serawak was fun!
will post the pic tmr if nobody is using the comp =x
oh ya!
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i TOTALLY recommend u bloggers to hear "the script" songs

here's the top 3 songs frm "the script" tat i like so far :)-----

talk you down
if u see kay/kate
the man who can't be moved

there's also other bands tat i like too!

here's the songs for sentimental people like me~ (nt emo!)

supernatural by flyleaf
cry by the script
fully alive by flyleaf
that what you get by paramore

okays then ..have fun!!
going 2 sleep soon
nite

2009-05-21T04:43:00.001-07:00

lol...damn bored!

thx 4 the tag

will be away frm school for 5 days

so have fun u boys/girls~

better layan(talk) to erielle cuz she easy gt bored

must sEe her smile when i gt bak on wednesday hor!

hope u all will tell me gd stories in sch and i will tell u mine too~

bet u all will have fun without me :p

missing u all lots!! <33

cya!!

[won't be having fun in serawak:)]

2009-05-21T00:31:00.000-07:00

hehe! it was really silly of me to purposely gt lower marks just to let someone score highest in class :P
well,at least i didn't have to stand infront of the whole class 2 gt reward frm ms pearl ^.^
didn't expect 2 have 7o marks bt glad tat i pass 4 the overall results.
its kinda weird to be first cuz people tend to stare at u and stuff like tat...
i noe its a stupid reason bt its true!
huhuhu, there was alot of mistake in my paper!
this is wat happen when u rush through your paper -.-
even though i purposely cut down some of my marks, i still manage to gt some correct!
wuuuhhuuuuu~~
i kept quiet when ms pearl call my name cuz i noe wat she's gonna say
and i have to admit...she was totally disappointed in my results!
haizz...true tat i wasted all the marks just becoz of tat position bt at least i pass!
u dun need to be smart to do math
u just have to make it fun in ur lifetime~
be patient and have an enjoyable time doing it =)
and tats wat i did...
i did wat i could and tat's wat i get
i didn't notice tat i was having fun wif my math cuz i was rushing through the paper!
the time was really short like a train man!!
eventually i did it.. a 70 mark tat make me pass 4 a reason!
must nt fall 4 wat i achieve and must gt bak on track before anything worst happen!

scared to be on top again....
will i gt it bak again??
aaarghhhh tis is humilliating...
hoping to gt the achievement again :D

oh congratz to geetha who gt highest in english and shieh ying who gt highest in math!
woooootsssss~~~~~~~~ hehehehe :P

2009-05-17T05:34:00.000-07:00

yesterday went to east coast with shiehying
did alot of embarassing things bt it was fun!
[enjoy the pic whileu can!]

Night at the Museum 2: Monkey Slap

2009-05-15T04:14:00.001-07:00

2009-05-14T23:08:00.000-07:00

misadventure of mimin&zilah

last week went out wif my belofamily. Ate at east coast there bt didn't ate alot cuz i drank to much water while waiting 4 the parents 2 arrive. Me and kak mimin bought mutton chop while the rest bought rice, chicken and etc... It was ok until i half-way wanna go shit. Didn't gt the chance to eat satay cuz my bladder couldn't take it anymore...so i ask kak mimin to go accompany me find the toilet place. That was the part when our adventure start to turn chaotic leh! Me and kak mimin tot that the gents(men) toilet was combine wif the female toilet so went in lor. Didn't notice where we were going until some dude came out and said"eh,eh!"

Wah sey, so paisey lehh! SOMEMORE, i acciddentally saw a guy peeing and he saw me looking and went 2 look at me sia! so scary! both me and kak mimin were laughing our ass out cuz we were so damn kai su! then then, when we gt out, we saw the girls toilet infront of us lehh

(so sickening)and kiter cepat-cepat lari pat situ sey. panic betul! (we ran to tat place). suddenly gt this auntie sitting on a table. she was showing me her hand to pay up and i again panic like crazy! ask kak mimin 4 money and she laugh at me cuz my face alrdy panic and gave the money to the autie lor. toilet looks clean bt there's no pipe! inside the toilet toot like crazy sia!

asked 4 kak mimin help if she could buy 4 me a water bottle so tat i cn wash my toot properly bt she tot tat i was thirsty and said tat she will buy 4 me after i finish my buisness.LOL! I DIDN'T NOE WAT 2 SAY NEXT SO I JUST SAID "AH" ONLY. then when i gt out, i told her abt the bottle thingy and she again laugh cuz she didn't noe tat i wanna wash my toot away. It's very nice to have her ard cuz she help me 2 wet the tissue to wash my toot away~ after tat trouble went bak 2 our eatting place like some normal people do..hehe! willnt frgt abt tat moment!

sry if my story are nt gd or anything

try 2 gt me!

2009-05-10T08:48:00.000-07:00

after 2 days of going out wif my cousins, i kinda feel relax
had fun bt still worried/depress abt sumthing though
exams??
nt sure
kept feeling distracted
thinking abt happy thoughts ...happy thoughts...
ok lahh...im ending my post here..4 nw.

gd nite & happy mothers day/vesak day!